Out Of Sync

That feeling between depression and just needing to get your shit together.

Just a little out of sync.

Late at night
 A little out of sync
Playing with the radio
Trying not to think
Pen in my hand
this is all I ever had

I speak
"I need change"
And the words bounce from wall to wall
They slip under the door and slide down the hallway
And eventually hit the night air
God gasps and the wind blows
And my sentiments are joined with others.
As we all speak
Needing change and love in our lives.

Fingers tight around the pen.
I've been all messed up lately.
A little out of sync they say.
When will devon be ok?
Soon! they say
He's just a little lost
Mind out to play.

And Oh i've been down a cruel road.
Fighting an invisible foe.
Waking up covered in self-inflicted bruises.
Blaming myself for the sunrise and sunset.
There's things out of my control.
And I always seem to forget.

A little out of sync.
The man in white says i'm a little out of sync.
Here's a little pill devon, he says.
It'll dry those tears that fall in your sink.
So at night I took two.
And I stopped feeling.
I stopped dreaming

Made my tummy hurt.
Bright blue eyes a dull grey.
Friends looking for support.
Don't know what to say.
Hands deep in my pockets.
Eyes to the ground day to day.

Balance never my paradise
I'm a little out of sync and that's alright.
Gotta spend some time in darkness to find the light.

-dev