Stressing?

I feel like there is a difference between overt stress and hidden stress.

Overt stress to me is the stress we want to be visable to other people. Certain things can cause overt stress like work, school, drama. Our minds acknowledge the stress and set about to solve the issue by using physical reactions. It can show in your face and behaviour. What I mean by visual is that others can tell you're stressed. This can range from extreme stress that could be recognized by a stranger on the street. Or it could be simply a loved one or a close friend who recognizes a shift in your behaviour.

But then there is hidden stress. And I feel that hidden stress works under the surface. We may not realize that we are stressed out. There was a time last year that I broke down into tears over literally nothing. I was at work and something silly came up like a person returned a coffee. It literally made me rush to the bathroom and bawl like a baby. I feigned being sick and left. And continued to cry and cry on my way home. I finally went to the gardens on the uvic campus and got a hold of myself. To me this was a strong undercurrent of stress that had been affecting me in a subconcious way. After some thought i realized that I just missed shannon a lot and had been shoving the feeling deep down.

The interesting thing about the hidden stress is how a simple question of "are you stressed"? Can open up the mind to maybe admitting "yes I am stressed".

I posted on facebook about a dream I had of losing my teeth and somebody commented that it could be caused by stress. At first I was like nahh me? I'm not stressed. But I pondered it for awhile and realized how shit I am quite stressed. I'm stressed about money, girls, grades, my social work application etc. So i'm not sure what to do about it all.

To add to this a girl in my creative writing class was supposed to scan a bunch of poems and email them to me. It's almost 10pm so it doesn't look like I'm going to be receving them. It's fine if she didn't get around to it. Just send an email apologizing..I know we don't know eachother. But that seems the courteous thing to do. 

Gonna take a long hot shower on this one. I'm fresh out of candles to so I should get on that.

And I need to cut out fast food from my life. Had a whopper meal today and its like whyy did I do that.