Jan 16/2013

Fuck it my blogs my only friend!!!

Just kidding.

I caught a falling star the other day.
It shone so bright through my fingertips.
And I held it close to my heart.
Oh, so close to my heart.
And it felt like I'd been born with stardust from the start.
It's a magical thought that maybe there was some love in that room.
That my parents cold divorce hadn't formed on the walls yet.
But this and that happened.
Glass shattered aganist the hardwood floor.
And he stormed out into the winter night.
And I held my mothers hand tight.

Years passed and the visits got less and less frequent.
Painful moments in airports.
They say your so lucky to have visited hawaii.
To live in paradise devon.
Devon your so lucky.
Well I didn't feel so lucky when I was torn away.
Just when I was feeling close to my mother.
It's not a great memory to be losing your mind strapped in an airport seat.
Trying to hard to be a man and not cry.
But I was just a boy.
I want to scream to the world I was just a boy.
Like..fuck.
Why the fuck can't this plane just take off.
Why can't I pry off this window and jump onto the runway.
Somethings wrong the engine.
So we're just gonna sit here.
So close but so far away.
I stare at the safety card with blurry eyes.

Magic exists in the far reaches of hope.
I don't even know what that line means.
But it sounds good.
Stars shine brightest in the darkest of night.
Thats not even my line.
But it can be remarkably true.
I caught a star the other day.
And through my fingertips it shone.
I figured it's better to let it go.
So it can find its place in the sky.
And when I look up it's always there.
Gotta let go and hold on at the same time.

Caught a star the other day.
But couldn't contain the energy.

Ah fuck it i'm going to bed.