Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Jan 23.2013-single problems

Well one of two slowest months of the year is almost done.
I'm broke as a joke. What else is new?

Anyways, I wanted to talk about couples today.
Because, well they've been annoying the fuck out of me on facebook. But also in real life.

So let me start off by saying there are tons of cool couples out there. And i'm talking in terms of hanging out with them as a single person.

But what makes them cool and others..not soo cool? Well my issue is a little psychological. You see, some couple are like the same person with two heads. When you are with them they become like a combination of two seperate personalities into one. They tend to sit quite close to one another. Generally there is a lot of contact going on at all times. But more than on a physical level, their mental proccesses seem to be the same. They talk about the same things. Experiences they shared. They often have little mini conversations inside the general conversation. They will stop and have little arguments and then revert their attention back to you. Just these little nuances that I notice.

And it all reminds me of how fucking single I am.

Now, other couples are not like this. They maintain seperate mindsets. They don't need to cuddle with eachother when they speak to other people. These are the type of relationships I find attractive. Yeah, having my OWN brain sounds a lot better than melding with my girlfriends brain. My girlfriend can do her thing, and I can do mine. This also helps because i find intelligence and independance in woman attractive. If she has her own thing going on that she can talk about. Maybe she's taking a course, or has a career. Or just in general is able to "do her own thing". Thats dope as fuck and i'm down with that.

These couples make me feel less "single"

And of course you have the annoying couples that will remind you of how single you are in more obvious ways. You know..recommend other single people you can meet. Look at you with sort of pity as you try and tell them you're enjoying being single. No really, I'm doing me right now. Aw devon its ok you'll meet that special someone soon. Great, thanks two headed monster that used to be two people i knew singularly.

hmm anything to add to this. I'm tying to kill time before I head to my aboriginal womans studies class. yup, i'm in deep with this gender studies stuff. this is my fourth course. we're hitting up the archives today. i've been there once before for a history course. its hella boring and i hope they don't take us on a tour like they did last time.

and then i have work. i'm a little nervous about work. i don't know how i'm progressing. i've fucked up a couple times. just little things. nothing catastrophic yet. there's this stress level in kitchens that i try to avoid. but you kinda have to be on your game and a little stressed out to make it all go together. that's why so many kitchen workers smoke cigs and dope and drink tons and do drugs. cause kitchen work fucking sucks. it really does. some people pursue it as a career and i think they are bananas. but to each their own i suppose.

but yeah, gonna wrap this all up. i'm single and i work in a kitchen and i'm always broke. but i go to school so thats somewhat justified.


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