I'm baaack w/ Annoying Emotional Hurdles

Well I decided to kick this blog back up again. That's all that needs to be said about that. I wanted to talk about emotional hurdles. Specifically emotional hurdles relating to a breakup. I have some experience with the topic because I recently was broken up with. Just over a month ago. It was a painful experience. But I don't want to say it had no value or that it was a completely and utterly negative event. There's a couple different ways you can look at a split. And I chose to be as positive as possible. However, there are these emotional hurdles I had to overcome. They were almost like stages. I am still tackling these hurdles. Much to my annoyance. I accept the fact that I am single. And I know i'll never be with her again. From the beginning I never wanted to be 'that guy'. You know the one. He can't get over the break up and he calls/stalks/yells at his ex girlfriend all the time. I often see these types of things among people i know. Perfectly normal guys turn into psychotic losers. It's a shame. And I was not about to have that happen to me. Although there was still these emotional hurdles and one of them I found the 'hardest' was seeing her out in public. I'm not talking like at the grocery store. I would rather have a run-in like that. Cause then we could just make small talk. And it would stregthen a bond that would be entirely based on friendship. But at a nightclub? With alchohol involved? I just found that situation uncomfortable. Running into someone at the grocery store is not the same as watching my ex girlfriend dancing with another guy. Especially a guy that I know. It's a different kind of difficulty. And I'm kind of tired of this 'rip the bandaid riiight off' type of situations i find myself in. Like jeez, ignorance is bliss when it comes to that kind of stuff. I know she'll be with other people. But I don't need it paraded in front of me. Especially since it's like..i don't know i was just there to have fun. Heinrichs reacted hilariously. I don't think he really meant to. But he was like dr phil the whole night. "You have to get used to seeing her in social situations devon!!" And of course he's right. I just wish there was an easier way to slide into it. Like walking down a hill instead of cliff diving. When another one of my ex's showed up..well that was about time we found another place to party. Something I found fascinating was how much I still hate that girl. Just the way she was and how she treated me. We'll never be cool. At least I don't have that with shannon. I truly do believe shannon and I can be friends. I think thats something we both want. Hopefully. But yeah fuck emotional hurdles. I know they are necessary towards a full recovery. But does it have to be on my friday night? Signing out.