Solace.

I want to cry
because maybe that will let it all out
but those tears have done dried
and i've done sighed
and made my way through all this shit
so why am I up at all hours
thinking of you.

My problems lay in the confines of the unexplainable
who am i to say what's going on in that pretty head of yours
I just know you smelt good
and i found solace in your heartbeat
boom boom boom
get me the fuck out of this room
i just want to lace up my runners
and tear off across this prarie
this land I find dead and alive at the same time
bright with the optimism of the young heart
dark with the failed attempts of reaching success
you give and you let go
a little more than the other
i try and pass my knowledge down to my younger brother.

My poetry is all over the place
like the wind
it lightly brushes and catches the breath
and you can only feel life once you notice it being taken away
don't cry because i hate seeing your tears
I don't want to rip it all up because in a second i'll regret it
and no amounts of super glue and apologies will take back the stupid shit i said.

Who am I to say what's going on in that pretty head of yours
when you grabbed my hand.
and i felt you shiver and shudder.
because of those men whom had laid hands on you before me
when you speak, the words come out of your eyes
and i trust them because they glisten and sparkle
they open and they close
but most of all they look upon me.
you look into my eyes when we make love
and I can tell I am working us towards a better future.

It's solace
the inner peace the troubled mind breathes from his mind while staring at the moon
the moon so far away
the peace so far away
the bottle so close to the lips
the endless hours serving for tips
it's all so fucking far away
while I dip my feet in the cold lake water
and count the stars
hoping for one to fall
so I can take off on my horse and catch it.

Then I would hold the light
and I could share it with those dwelling in the sewers.
It would illuminate those huddled in corners
Let em shine.
And find the solace.