Poetry On My Breath

If the weight of the world finally claims my last step.

Just remember it was poetry on my mind

Poetry on my last breath.

Holding me, touching me
Forging your signature on my skin
As if I could ever be yours

You lied when you held me close and said "I love you"

You forced that and I believed it all

You ended things and I forced a...

It's ok

It's ok

It's ok

If i repeat it all quickly then things will be ok
If I drive real fast past the neon signs that beckon me with sin
Inviting love but never delivering
Guess I just gotta pick you up and drive so far away
Stop. Let's tell the truth. We both just want to shed clothes and breath real deep
I'm a little unhibited and my mother hates you for it
She wants me to find a girl bound to a small town
Not travelling the world with my heart in her hands
But I never relished safety with my passionate embraces
No, we can hang off this cliff edge
Just don't let me go.

Dev

Summer Nights

I watch her undress on a hot summer night 
Holding my breath as she unfolds many petals
Each carefully and precariously given out
And when it all unfolds I have all of her
But the winds come soon, I taste it in the air
And how can I touch her, feel her?
The way things are, I could bruise her
I could fuck up and lose her

-D

March 18/03

It's not the power I want
But the passion only held in the eyes
Without my heart i'm nothing in this disguise
Nor does the strength of a thousandmen interest me if I cannot hold upself up to the critics
I match the cold stares of inaffection with a warm smile.
And relish the freedom I've achieved from believing in myself



We were't convincing them as lovers
We hid from judgement
Caves made from covers
Nobody could touch what we created between us
A fortress of looks behind the backs of our current affairs
I don't mind the way he runs his hand along your back
Spilling his drink down his throat and swearing loudly.
Because I'll see you later on when you're finished yelling and he's passed out
We weren't convincing them as lovers



-D

Just Writing

it's just writing
but also intimacy
having the confidence to share part of myself
with no real idea what you're going to do with it
perhaps you'll just stop by and take away
a friend
a lover
probably somewhere in the middle
leading to the next line, the next spark of creativity
as I put down so eloquently
who I thought you were
and who I always wanted you to be
scrawls quite similar to those curves
so inviting while my hand shakes
fumbling in the night for the right move
always looking for the right groove
it's just writing
but also so much of me

-D

Pieces Of Myself

Pieces of myself falling from my pocket
scattering across a marble covered floor
stammering my apologies I lean down to collect what I have left
only to meet my reflection halfway to hell
"you're a mess" she remarks, foot resting on my heart
"where did you come from?"  I ask
she towers over me with a heel that could plunge through concrete
ready to drive her foot down and squish my heart
"try it" I gaze up with defiant eyes
and for a moment the heel hovered just above my heart
and then came crashing down
I watched as the heel struck my hardened heart
it didn't it didn't break it caused showers of emotion
and our past just exploded into the sky
for us to watch and fear
for us to learn.

-Dev

Long Winter

fuck the flights and fights
fuck the tired eyes and sleepless nights
fuck losing you and even more to him
endless miles of ocean I feel I gotta swim
just to keep up with a rising tide of insecurity
cold water splashed on my face staring into the midnight mirror
so, so, sorry I brought up uncomfortable truths over dinner
now it's gone cold
in many ways more than one
at the very least it's getting warmer
still freezing but slowly feeling the heat from the sun

it's been a long winter...

-Dev

Missing The Rain

toes curled defiantly against the rain
but so inviting to be refreshed
after everything had been stuck, stagnant, and opposed
to anything movement. anything change
now things are moving. my world fluid
hands wave in the air over the fire
they say something, tell a story
but i'm just happy
happy it finally rained
-Dev